Friday, October 15, 2010

Day 11: My Life Is Not My Own

Late into the night, as the skies opened up and continuously rained buckets, I had a great conversation with a guy who is also a student here @ TEFL. He began explaining to me how he has made some mistakes in the past and according to what he’s told me he has stumbled upon many unfortunate scenarios, and wrong-place-wrong-time kind of deals. Now, Im not going to delve into detail here because that’s his business not mine, but during a part of our conversation I was struck with such a revelation where for a moment I could definitely relate. After his stories of tragic past events he started explaining to me that despite all that he has done and all of the misfortune that he has endured whether out of consequence or just plain bad luck; his father, unjudgingly, has always been there with unconditional love and no matter the circumstance, he was there... ALWAYS. He then continued saying how he would do anything just to make his father smile - give him something to be proud of, and to do something with his life that will somehow repay his father. As he was saying this, immediately, one thought came to my head, “aren’t I in the same situation?” I owe myself to MY father, Jesus Christ! The one who died on the cross, in unfathomable love for his children, to bail me out from a sentence of death and forgive me of all the sins i’ve committed (past, present, and future), yet I don't deserve any of it. I owe him my life. And just listening to the booming thunder and watching as the lightning flashed upon the entire ocean in the cool, black night, I felt the sheer presence of Jesus Christ, and I was filled with such a raw loving passion. I serve a powerful God. My God is here with me, and I am not alone. I want to make my Jesus smile.

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